Action Replay 2015

A year ago, I was spending one laid back evening at my sister’s place. What a simple way of welcoming a New Year! Things have changed so massively in a year. 2015 has been quite unpredictable, and on many occasions, it was disappointing and excruciating too. No matter what I say, it has been a great learning experience.

I sit down to write this, with so many thoughts in my head, and too many new songs in my playlist. I brood over all the things that happened this year. It has been one disgusting year topped with awful things. But, I've written down things that I learned this year.

Ø       People change. Things change. For good or bad. You cannot expect things to be the way you want.

Ø       Books can give you more comfort than people.

Ø       Understood the true intentions of a few people, who only wanted to manipulate me to get their way. I've never been this hurt before.

Ø       Coffee makes you feel better. I have turned into a bigger caffeine addict.

Ø       There are very few friends with whom you can pick where you left. Glad that I got in touch with her this year.

Ø       To hate somebody doesn’t earn you anything. I’ve let go off people this year for what they have done to me. Believe me, I have made peace with myself by forgiving them. Appreciated them for what they taught. Good and the bad.

Ø       A flame vodka shot can make you dance nonstop for three hours. Duh!

Ø       It takes a lot of guts to do what you actually want to do and I make sure I do it. Without bothering about what others would say or what the society would think.

Ø       The first quarter of the year saw me indulge in baking. The satisfaction that I get in baking a new recipe or shopping for myself is something else altogether.

Ø       Goa is such a laid back place that it makes you lazy as well.

Ø       Friends are the best things in the world. Chocolate and vodka come real close.

Ø       Saw the true colours of certain people and realized that they were poisoned all along.

Ø       I have absolutely no regrets. What ever happened and whatever will happen, happens for a reason.

Ø       Made mistakes, took it positively and learnt from them. Of course a mistake doesn't start of being well, a mistake. It is a normal activity or emotion that goes wrong somewhere due to various reasons. Making mistakes only make you stronger. And for God's sake never make them again. That's foolishness and you'll be in trouble forever.

Ø       Now, that I have realized my mistake, I would never go back to that road again. I had had to know where to draw the line. Now I do. If this had not happened to me, maybe I wouldn't have ever realized it. I guess, this is God’s way of teaching us.

Ø       Also realized that you do anything in the background, it shall be accepted. Even if it is the wrong thing. Do it in front of everyone and then hell breaks loose. Even if it is the right thing.

Phew! I had a tough time listing out these things, and most of them do not make any sense. But this year has just been hard, you know?

Thanks to everyone who were with me in this mad year. Also, the ones who weren't with me. Huge thanks. No. I am not being sarcastic.

'Let It Go' by James Bay

This song consists of: an acoustic guitar, a wide-ranging dynamic music, some emotional lyrics, and the pouring of Bay’s heart into the song. What else do you want to devour into a song?

When I heard this emotional song, these thoughts struck me.  The idea of difference, and uniqueness…At what point do we accept incompatible nature? At what point do we decide, enough is enough? At what point do we own ourselves, both light and shadow? At what point do we stand our ground and regain ourselves? When do we set free? When will we trust? Do we take action in love or fear?

Do we love enough to let go?

Confession: I have a thing for boys who play guitar…ya and that has lead me to James Bay. Yeah, totally cliché but come on, it's true.

It’s now been almost six months since I first began listening to this song, but with the release of Bay’s album Chaos and the Calm, plus the song's new music video, I have started to listen to the song in earnest once more. What initially caught my ear then, and still does, is the complete intensity in which he sings. You can feel and almost see the heartbreak thanks to his visual lyrics:

“I used to recognize myself
It's funny how reflections change
When we're becoming something else
I think it's time to walk away”

And, this song is on continuous loop on my playlist but the reason isn't just about the lyrics—his soulful voice keeps me coming back for more. The way he sings feels sincere, something that can be lacking in similar artists.  In short, I could listen to his new album all day, and I think you'll enjoy it too. I would highly recommend giving it a listen when you have the time, but be prepared to hit replay pretty soon after.

First Love Yourself!!

Have you ever wondered what makes a relationship work? It is love, understanding, respect that keeps it alive but much before that, it is the desire to have that person in your life.

You do everything because you know no relationship is perfect. You had differences with your parents, siblings and friends, and eventually you forget those differences and they are still there in your life. Maybe, you left few friends and relatives in that process. However, you left only those who were not important or the difference was much bigger than the relation. There is of course a social angle to it. You can't leave your family. Who does that? You can't leave your spouse. Why? Society will judge you; you will have a tabooed word associated with you for your entire life. Now, the question is...what about you?

You have a relationship to which you are completely loving and honest. You make efforts to keep it alive, you change yourself and you make sacrifices. But many years down the lane, you realize you have lost yourself. You are nobody. You don't even know what makes you happy. Sad, isn't it?

And one day you make a decision. You say to yourself, 'I want to be happy. I want nothing but happiness.' This is the day; you find all your answers you have been looking for.

Respect yourself before you respect others. Give your happiness more value. Make sacrifices not because someone you love will be happy; make it because it makes you happy. Above all, love yourself...

P. S. - But still.... It take Two to Tango, Two to Fight and Two to make it Alright!

Trouble with Life

She thinks her life is in misery. She doesn't know whether to apologize to Life or wait for Life to apologize to her. She always ponders that Life has something in treasure for her and it has unfolded in a very different way out of it. But Life wonders why she has squandered all her gifts and is still ungrateful.

Her Life isn't what she’s expected to be.  What did she expect in her Life though? Happiness, Money, Fame, Friends, Love, Respect?  She has a great confusion running in her mind. She doesn't know what she wants. Perhaps, she knows what she wants.

Though Life has given everything she wanted, yet she feels abandoned.  But why??

She has a confrontation with Life. She was hesitant to vent out her feelings. She thinks Life would laugh at her and take away the things that she is left with.  She couldn't disclose her mood. But who else can make her feel better. We are all alone in our own battle with Life, thinks she.

Life started to explore to know what’s pulling her back.  Life has come to a conclusion that, she is unsatisfied with what she had. She wants more love in her Life. She wants everything to be lively around her. Whatever Life has tried to make thing better for her has been turned down by her. Life thinks there’s no way out of it and has succumbed its help to her.