Happy Birthday to Me!!

Yet another Birthday. I just added another year to my life.

 I am chronologically a year older and this was very hard to digest…another meaningless milestone in the journey of life but I don’t feel very different, don’t think I look any different either. But the fact of life is that I am yet another year older!!

For a girl like me who feels fifteen (and is sure that she will feel the same when she is 80) it did not come as the best of news. ;) Arghhhh..life is bizarre.

Birthdays are special days and they are very very exciting till the time you reach your twenties and then the excitement of yet another birthday gradually tappers down.

Anyways…no matter how old you grow. Birthdays are always special days. They are the days when you are officially the king/queen and everyone makes you feel special.

So yesterday was my day and I had a nice time  and then of course the best part of the day was receiving all the wishes from long lost friends and family.

Thank you everyone who Met …Called….SMSed….Pinged… Facebooked and wished me. You people (in that order of effectiveness!) totally made my day.

And for all those of who missed wishing me yesterday….worry not…..you can still do that….. Belated wishes are valid for the next 364 days!!

HaPpY bIrThDaY tO mE!!!

   This is the picture when I was three years old. Am in bob cut :) and the other gal is my sister.

This is the picture when I was two..Mom used to say me that I was very afraid to get a photograph that day                                               and I just can't seem to get my head around it.Bahahahaah :)

Love you Amma.perhaps I am one year old by then.

So called intense emotion~~L.O.V.E

What makes us fall for that person? (Or in some cases those PEOPLE...)

Why do we love someone very completely?

Do we really love or is it a state of emotion so intense that one is carried beyond rational thought and self-control?

Do we fall in love using heart or brain? (I always do have a perplexity about this mind and heart)

So if love is in the brain and not the heart, is there ‘love at first sight’ after all? But how can one fall in love with someone they’ve never even exchanged words with?

Does it happens only once Or can it happen twice?

Arghhhh…..So many questions…okay let me stop by this single one…J

Does love really exists?    

      

Was talking to my colleagues at office yesterday and taking out their opinion on love. Few of them are married and few are single. Few had a love marriage and few had an arranged marriage!!

They all came up with different answers…love is care, love is about feeling special about the person, love is a thing that can help us  be together, love can be hurtful, love is freedom, love is magic, love is fun , love is divine, love is ecstasy, love is jealous and so on…

And in a random conversation with one of my friends, said love can be ego!!!!

I always wonder, why people fall for the simple things about them like their smell, their smile, their innocence, their child like attitude or even the way the walk can send our heart into flutters. Why is it that it sneaks up on you and hits you with the force of a train going at 120mph?

We don’t choose to love, certainly not. Just  another one of those things affected by those around us.

Why is it a lot of people fall in love when the people we meet are so random, so really you could fall in love with anyone? Anyone know, what is it that makes us chase after someone? Is it a chemical thing or physical or a mix?

All these feelings and I stop to wonder, why?

                                                                                                       
If anyone can shed any light on it, I know this question isn’t very clear at all, but just any ideas of what makes us fall for someone. Is it that we are attracted to people that remind us of our parents (those who nurtured us?) or those of a similar race or with a certain temperament, smell, voice, size…???ANYTHING at all, if you know anything I would be extremely interested also why we have no control over it, why we continue to love even when it is unrequited and puts everyone in such pain?

Seems like an never-ending quest to define this unexplainable idea — this elusive thought — we try so hard to give words to the feelings…but why do I want to blog something indefinable? why do I want to know what love is all about?  Another why??

Mere words...

Words have magic. Words have feelings. They can breathe. They have a heart that beats. You can hear them breathing if you listen to them carefully. You can feel them casting their spell on you. You can't help but fall in love with this magic. There is an invisible cord that pulls you closer each time you here and feel them.

What do you want from words?

To tickle your mind?

Soothe your soul?

Advise? Inform?

Maybe you want to spark someone to action.

It's all about words at the end.Words written by you in your mind define you. Each time you write a line, you change. And your words accept you. It's a power to create this world in your mind. It's a power to create such thoughts. And this power is addictive. It takes you everywhere and nowhere at the same time.

And this power is beautiful…

Whyyyyyyyy???????

Was discussing with one of my colleagues at office today about the ‘why’ ones like...

Why is it morning in the morning and night in the night?

Why c in cat is spelled like k?

Why am I looking hefty?

Why are the selectors of Indian Idol so very rude?

Why I got married so early?

Why do stars twinkle?

Why do flutes have holes?

Why do I think 7.30am is an acceptable time for the day to start?

Why do I feel that sometimes time stands still, but yet time flies, too?

Why is it that my tummy can be full after three mouthfuls of rice, but it seems to have unlimited capacity for the junk food and ice cream?

….and the list went on but just don’t find the answers J 
Perhaps I just poured out my heart with the things I can’t say J J

So what would be top of the list of your ‘Why?’ ones!

Mixed Thoughts

Sometimes, so many thoughts are running through your mind that you don't know where to begin from. Whether to blog, or save in drafts, write a diary, share with a friend, ponder, forget, cry, run away, accept, embrace, give up, fight back or simply ignore them. No matter how hard you try, they haunt you always. Our mind is that way.

Life is weird. Things you are sad about right now will make you laugh at them tomorrow. Things you are happy about will soon seem as if they never existed.

Talking of mind, what do you think would be our mind? Heart is an organ, but mind? Where is it? Does it have a form? How come it controls us so much? How can it be an integral part of us and still remain non-existence in being?

Ah, too much of philosophy can kill me you know!! J

Yes, the thought storm is at its peak at the moment. I don't say that I am sad or happy right now. I am just in a different mood... You want everything to stand still, but nothing does. You are stuck and trapped. Everything is moving but you. That is the worst feeling to have when you cannot afford to slow down in life. Nothing interests you, not even work you are in love with, to an extent that even your survival does not matter after some point.

But again, it's life. And it goes on. Today we are crying about something, tomorrow we may not even remember it, for it may not really matter to us then. Or maybe we find better things. Or maybe we just remain stuck there in the same emotions even tomorrow.

There is a turmoil in my heart. Or is it there in the mind? Or it's not there at all? Can an illusion create such an impact too by lurking around, making sure that you actually believe it to be true? Illusion is such an easy way out from this. But if only, you could call it an illusion...

Ah, life is weird! What do you say??